The Healthy Body

Because we are all one, whether "I see it" or not, there is always someone else there for me, some-THING, some "way".....
I am connected - I have connections - to everything I now-need.
It's not just some willowy energies of "good" and "light" that are hovering to protect me or carry my prayers to their destination.... No...! Far more than that!
Within and in the immediate with-out are electrical, energetic connections, pulses, communications... and in THAT world (should I choose to acknowledge it) (and participate in it) I am connected with a perfectly functioning body. Community. World.

Must CHOOSE to live in it and not be distracted by the "matrix" that is currently self-destructing and collapsing in on itself due to unsustainability. It's a way they ("they") have chosen. It will not work. Not because "they are EVILLLL" but because.... it won't work. It won't work!!! They tried to make it work and it won't work.

So.... Choose NOT to participate in their destruction and demise.
Choose a different path. A different universe. A different reality. And live it.
In the reality of a living healthy body, all is connected and working for the good of the other, the next, the neighbor... To live in this world, don't look for it!!!! Don't "see" it. Know it. Know that it is there because it is, because you are conscious of it. You think therefore you are. Are what? What you think. "You are" part of a living healthy body. Always connected to every other part of the body. Know it don't look for it. KEY! Don't look for it. Know it. It is there!

What does this produce???
Among other things - No Fear.

There IS a healthy functioning body... Because there is life! Because we exist and are aware! Therefore it is!
It may be thought of as "the spirit body", the ascension body, the light body, the glorified body..... WHATEVER... But it is real and it is now and it is a choice. It is functioning NOW. It is not sometime in the future! Not something that will appear.... Not something we are rewarded with at the end of a righteous journey... It is a frequency. An alternate universe. AKA a choice! A choice in consciousness.

Trust that aura.... that presence... that energy that emanates from the healthy body. It creates a halo. A web. A "concentration".

True Evil

Those who are evil at heart will RAIL against the truth!
Those who feign evil out of a fearful heart will cower at the sound of truth.
you shall know them by their fruits . . . . . . .

Why Don't We Just Give...!?

We all know its a good thing to do.
Give.
Most of us are very touched by stories of someone behind the person at the check out, randomly paying for their items, or people leaving a waitress a $500 tip, or the person who randomly buys a hotdog for the homeless man nearby.....  Some of us are even brought to tears watching Ellen give people new cars, or Oprah paying off someone's debt so that they can get ahead in life, or by Undercover Boss where the heads of huge companies go undercover as an employee, get to know some of the people working for them, and then at the end reveal themselves and tell them how inspired they were by the employees and gives them money or whatever they may need to advance toward their own dreams.
Giving......
It is so beautiful to so many.  Why is it so very rare in our own lives and communities?
Some people are just crazy givers.  That's all they do is give give give. People like this mostly give of themselves and not money.  Some may say that these people have emotional issues and such dedicated giving is their attempt to satisfy a pain in their own lives instead of just genuine, heartfelt giving.
Maybe....
But maybe sometimes, some of these just really get it...!
Why don't we give more?  You and me.... Us..... Why don't WE give more???

Some reflections...
For me, giving is sacred and beautiful.  I wish / wait for the day, when we all live in a gift economy.  But right here, right now, the reason I don't give more of myself.... Is because it hurts.  And because it scares me. Maybe I am not average in this but I am so ridiculously sensitive!!!  For some reason I feel other people's energy to such an extent that its very difficult for me to be around them. For this reason I don't have many friends.
People hurt.
People often don't know when to let go, back off, give space.  I feel so overwhelmed, irritated, suffocated that I am no longer of any help to them.... I just need to get away.
Some people are in such a spin that when you reach your hand out to help, all you feel is empty consumption.  They take, they smile, they awwwww, they thank you so much....  And they toss aside what you've done for them because they just didn't get it.  They didn't value it, they didn't appreciate it.  Because they're spinning too fast in this world to feel anything anymore.  This is waste, and this drains a giving soul.
Yet other people seek out giving souls just to extort their resources.  This too is waste.  It is unwise to feed such people, (metaphorically).
But then some people..... some really are in need.  Some soak up every ounce of your gift and burst forth with such genuine gratitude that it changes their world... and yours.
Giving is sacred. 

And until you can give freely with wisdom, with joy, with no regrets and no expectations WHATSOEVER!!!! Your not getting it. 

Our Best Life... Our Perfect Path

Sometimes it is virtually impossible for us to believe, and painfully challenging to accept, that we are that far away from our best life, our most perfect path for this lifetime.
As humans we have been born and conditioned into a society that measures everything by performance-based value.  We believe we must earn everything... even love.

We believe that if we do "right" things that good things will happen to us.
And we believe that if "bad" things happen to us, we have done something wrong.  And we believe this so strongly that many of us if not most, spend lifetimes trying to 1) figure out what we did wrong because no matter how hard we try we can't truly see that we've done anything wrong, and 2) we spend a lifetime trying to "compensate" for any mysterious thing we did wrong, or imagined things that we did wrong, or things that others said we did wrong.....

And it seems that the ones that suffer the most in this syndrome are those who are the most sincere.
This is how we end up so very very far away from where our best life is.
We think we deserve things.  Or we think we fail and don't deserve things.  We even think we have failed so miserably that we deserve bad things!
And the thing that keeps us trapped in this is that we believe that to NOT  believe in this structure is absolute arrogance, denial, self-righteousness.
Yet many times the sincere among us often notice that these "bad" people - the arrogant, the blind and the self-righteous - seem to suffer very little.  If they are so "bad" why don't bad things happen to them?  Why do the wicked seem so blessed while the sincere seem to suffer one heartache after another...?  Why do bad things happen to good people...!?

Doesn't it seem like something is backward?
If I told you the key to the mystery.... would you believe me...?
"So close you can't see it.... So simple you wouldn't believe it..."

NONE of us are worthy of the good things.
NONE of us deserve the bad things.
You see, its the system that is flawed - not us.
It is the perspective we have been conditioned to see from that is askew.

We all exist in the image of god.  And all that means is that we are not victims of circumstance. We have the right and the ability to know where our path is and how to walk it.
We have free choice to be happy, content, angry, sad, eager, lazy.......  We fail INSTANTLY when we buy into the performance-based value system!  What if sincere people began to stop trying so hard to be good? What would they do instead!?  Would they become evil?
Try it!
You are no longer being assessed based on how good you are.  You deserve everything like a privileged child!  What would you actually do differently?  How "bad" would you behave?

Things happening in your life right now are the result of many things.  The energy that fuels all these "things" or happenings, comes from inside you.  Your mind, your thoughts, your heart, your soul, your actions and your reactions, your intentions....
Sometimes what we think and what we feel are not the same thing but we don't even realize it.
Sometimes what we feel and what our true deepest desire in our heart is do not match either, and we are not aware of this.
We assume much as well conditioned, well programmed human beings.  And most of what we assume is based on thought patterns and NOT our true authentic soul self.
Thoughts and patterns lead us one way.
Heartfelt, soul intuition - our true inner sense - leads us another way.

Our "path" often involves a journey to learn the difference between these two "voices".
Our true inner sense is the seat of the eternal... Our god nature, intuition, our connection with the universe and all it contains.  Which is what makes us "in the image of god" - all knowing, all seeing, all powerful.
Realizing this makes it quite obvious how thought patterns and conditioning have lead us so very far away from godhood!  We certainly do NOT believe we know everything!  If we did we wouldn't struggle so, right?  Exactly.  We wouldn't.  So now you can see how far away you are from that.  Separated from your godhood.

Peace, freedom, love, healing.... All these begin to manifest when we find the courage to let go of the programming!  Stop believing that we have to be good enough... Stop believing we have to earn love or acceptance.... Stop fearing what will happen if we tell the truth and begin to do what we really feel inside...

Sometimes it is virtually impossible for us to believe, and painfully challenging to accept, that we are that far away from our best life, our most perfect path for this lifetime.
But we can never begin the journey home if we never consider it.
On your true path there is no condemnation.  No ridicule.  No deserving or failing.  None.
Only love.  Only a journey.  No mandates.  You are free to be happy, once you realize that happiness is a choice, not a set of perfect circumstances.  Once you realize that life is not 'out there' but right here.  Once you realize that you can honestly feel all your emotions and survive.... and become healthier in your body, mind and spirit when you do.
Once you realize that this great separation, this immense distance between where you are and where your true path lies.... is all in your head.  Its nothing, but a belief.  Stop believing it and it does not exist.
The obstacles in your life are there to guide you along your path. They are there to signal an old pattern in your mind that is controlling your actions.  Once that pattern is recognized and released, it dissolves.
Sometimes even among the oldest, wisest, most experienced travelers, certain obstacles never dissolve in their lives.  And these serve as permanent guide posts which serve to keep them from falling in....

Abandoned

Fear comes from control issues....
Trust.
Who do ya trust? Who's in control?
When do ya trust?
Why do ya trust?

And where is "you" in all this?

Fear suggests that you believe you are NOT in control, suggesting that you believe you are not alone.....
And that someone you do not know and you do not trust may be in control of your environment.
This leaves you feeling vulnerable.
And afraid.

Suggesting...

Abandonment......
I'm starting to feel that the whooooooole ball o'wax is about abandonment....
Jesus' ultimate point of suffering was all about abandonment.

Abandonment.
Fear.
Trust.

I have learned, trust no one other than yourself.
It's unfair to burden others with your expectations of "truth" and "honesty".
Trust yourself, your own instincts. Listen to your heart and don't judge others for being less than your expectations. Make your choices accordingly.
This makes YOU responsible for you.
Trust issue solved.

But the fear and abandonment seem to linger....
I trust ME and hold ME accountable for my life, no one else, including religious imagery.
Still I feel abandoned and afraid.

Abandonment... I grew up with the mild religious teachings of God and Jesus.... Mild as opposed to devout and strict. If God made everything, including me, then why did I always feel alone... very alone.... very very alone.... Not accepted or understood by anybody, least of all family, with the very small exception of my Mother. Church people always said that Jesus would fill that empty place in your heart and life. I'm still waiting......... I still feel like I was dropped off on the wrong planet and forgotten.

No matter how "in tune" with myself I become, no matter how much the fears fade as I mature and continue to do this.... the abandonment will not fade.
Alone.
No one is ever there..... Not in my heart.... Not where loneliness lives.

Thru much inner work, thru surrendering to new perspectives and allowing my life to expand beyond the conditioning of humanity, I learn more and more trust from the circumstances of my life. The truth is, I'm always taken care of by "nobody". "Nobody" is always looking after me and I can't necessarily explain it. There's no one there, yet.... things always work out in my life.
So NOW my fear is being pushed to that one point where I break. That point where things DON'T work out.....! That point where I become a statistic on the street...
What's the difference between me and them? Who am I to judge...? And so.... I just trust me.... now.... no more.
Trust my intuition.
Trust that "something" bigger than me seems to be going on and NO I cannot control it.
The key seems to have been all along, to just pay attention. Listen. Don't resist my true inner nature. It seems to be magically guiding me to 'all the right places'.
Not necessarily where I think I wanna be... But most definitely where I am safe.... from everything....
So far.... Every time I am in need, something comes along to fill that need. I have no control. It freaks me out. If I let it, it drives me mad.
Come to find out, that's just my mind trying to protect me, trying to survive.... And come to find out, that mind of mine is where the fear comes from when it doesn't feel in control.... And come to find out, that mind of mine isn't the one always bailing me out, meeting my needs, making the magic!
I think REALIZING THIS is the key to success. Success being - always being taken care of.... NOT succumbing to the fate of my wildest fears.

This may not be what YOU need.
But its what I need.
It's where I am and this is my experience.

I've also learned that reading and hearing other's experiences can often hit a very live nerve and bring lots of comfort!

Just like the movie Boogieman.... The only way to get rid of him is to realize he's only as real as you make him. Face him - your own fears - and he will lose his power over you.