You Cannot Cure Their Insanity

.....This 'GOD' that you seek to serve  out there somewhere....
At some point in your journey you begin to realize that this god is you... In you.... In everyone.  Its that same god that has always been "there", only now your quest, your seeking drives you inward...(?)  Yes...
This god you are absorbed by, that you cannot deny, that you can't shake.... this need to know GOD.... is coming from deep, deep inside you.  And from no where else!
It is a major turning point in one's journey when they realize this, and in some cases give themselves permission to believe this.
Its more than just "god is in me, god is in everyone".  That moment when you begin to realize just what that means and has meant for all this time... That you ARE god.  And so is everyone else.
The people that frustrate you the most...?  God.
The homeless people.... God
The asshole that cut you off in traffic, the old people that don't  grasp the enormity of the current world and have no clue that they are holding up traffic on an ENTIRE MAJOR ROADWAY just because they're stuck in 1950 when things were much simpler and no one was in a hurry... why should they be...?  All god....
Have you ever looked a homeless person in the eyes?
Why are they...?
Have you ever realized you could be standing in their shoes?  Why aren't you?  Why don't you?
Do you love them?  Do you care?
That moment of compassion that makes your heart bleed, maybe even break....  But why does it?
When you get to that point, your first instinct is you wanna DO something!!
You wanna help them!
But think about it... They're not jobless and homeless and showerless because they're lazy and want a handout.  If it was that simple don't you think ALL YOUNG PEOPLE would choose to be homeless!?  Think about it!
These people are homeless because they can't work.  They can't hold a job and sometimes can't even hold a conversation, at least not for very long, and not coherently.
Drugs?
Ah yes.... blame everything on drugs.  Ok then why the drugs?
What happened to them!?!?  Why can they no longer function?  Put yourself in their place now.
What happens if you start to slip?  What happens when you can't afford to fix yourself?  It's not always like the commercials.  Thousands of people slip thru the cracks every day.  What if it was your turn, circumstances beyond your control, you feel yourself drowning.... sinking... slipping away.  But you don't die.  You live.  Somewhere.  Out there.  You can't remember.  You're hungry.  You can't remember ever feeling so thirsty.  You have to use the bathroom. Now what........  Who loves you?  How many years have you been out there?  How far gone are you?

In that moment, you can't fix them.  Its not that easy.
How then do you love them?  What can you do for them?
Nothing.  You can do nothing... but truly love them.  You can't change their life.  But you can accept them.  Give them some coins... some food.  There are no programs, no methods, no remedies for these.
In order to fix them, you have to find and fix every little thing that made them.
They are a sign.  The part of god that forces you out of your comfort zone.
They are soldiers.  They hold a place in our world that we cringe to consider.
It's much easier to blame them, ridicule them, judge them and call them names.
But they are you.

And at this suggestion you protest, "If I  were in their shoes I'd  do something to improve myself!!!"
Then why do you think it is that they don't do the same?
Do you think that they've never thought of 'something better'?
Have you ever had experience with someone whose capacity is not the same as yours?
If you are a very efficient, skilled, achieved person, then I imagine you get very frustrated with incompetence.
I imagine that you assume that YOU worked hard to become so accomplished and if everyone else did the same, there'd be no homeless people.
Ok, your mind and body is sound.  You are blessed.  But what if you had a child... with Down Syndrome?  Cerebral Palsy?  Dyslexia?  Autism?  You can be the shit and control everything in your environment.... But you can't control that.  And you can't judge your own child for being born in a challenged state.
What if your life threw you a curve that you could NOT gain control of?
Have you ever been overwhelmed?  Out of your league?
Is your competence and achievement for your personal gain alone?  Why do you suppose you are so adept at navigating life while others seem to just suck at it!?
What do you do with those...?
What do you do with those you cannot  change...?  Like your Autistic daughter...  Your Father who has been strong, healthy and self sufficient all his life... and then begins to develop Alzheimer's...

You feel that threshold...  That line.... That marker within yourself that has to decide to "love" rather than "fix".  If you can't fix them.... What do you do then...?
You accept them.  You accept that you can love the unfixable.  That is god.  Acceptance.
Thats ultimately all anybody wants.
God is you.
To seek god after a certain point in your journey means that you are seeking you... the real you.
Who are you really....  ?

That moment when you are stricken with awe or beauty or amazement.... and you look up to share that moment with someone nearby and you realize.... you're alone.  Is that moment still beautiful?  Can you stand there alone and feel that moment and appreciate it without an audience?
In this moment, you are.  And that's it.
You do nothing.
You reach your hand out and accomplish nothing.  You did nothing to create this moment of awe and yet there you are in it.
You can't take any credit, but you can feel.  You are filled with feelings!  You're not thinking, or figuring, or sorting anything out....

You are simply struck in a moment of experience.

What shall you do with it...?
What shall you do but experience it.... feel it...?  What is that moment worth to you?
You cannot replicate it.  You cannot share it - no one's there.

You can neither cure their insanity.
But you can feel compassion.  You can feel acceptance.
What you've been taught about responsibility is mostly a lie.
Responsibility is that moment when you decide.  That moment when you choose.
You are responsible for your choices.  To love, to judge, to criticize, to accept, to give.... to feel what's right and allow it to be.  To experience a moment one day that may cause you to wonder if there's not something much bigger than you going on in the universe...

Unconditional love....
It's rare.
It's pricey.
It's everything "free", "god", "peace", "heaven".... everything you ever longed for.
Love is the answer.
Love has no conditions, is not attached to anything, has no requirements, no strings, no expectations.
Love has no needs, no wants, no success and no failure.

To love the unlovable.
To love the unfixable.

There are thousands of people with thousands of very workable solutions to the ills of our world.  And for every viable solution there are a thousand more people who do not agree.  They see another side of the situation that causes them to feel differently.  Everyone can't be wrong and everyone can't be right.
So what do you do?

Whatever you want to do.
And that's what we've always done.
And so here we are.

Now it comes down to just you.
What do you  want to do?
It's not my choice to make.  And my opinion doesn't make one bit of difference.  Unless you needed to hear it....
But only you know that.

The Secret of the Impossible

Only take on an insurmountable task if you are driven.... passionate, excited, in love with the results.
If you take on impossible tasks to prove yourself... for others, for fears, because someone tells you to.... you will no doubt get hurt.

HOW DO YOU KNOW!!!

There was only ONE brief shining moment in history when a piece of paper let you know if someone was qualified to do something or not, and to what extent they were qualified.
But it didn't take long for humans to figure out, There's a way around this!!!
And the system.... (of education, of integrity, of mastery, of learning) became as corrupt as everything else that humanity figures out.

And today, a piece of paper no more tells you how qualified a person is to do something than the internet does.

In fact, there are more so-called idiots who are actually true doctors and have no degree than there are so-called doctors out there with degrees that are just idiots!

What's the difference and how do you know???
If there's no paper to tell you how qualified a person is, how do you know how qualified they are!?

Do you not recognize when someone is especially gifted?
Are beneficial results not obvious to you?

What did people do before "degrees" were invented?  They trusted. Of course some were duped by charlatans and snake oil salesmen!  But giving out degrees did NOT do away with snake oil salesmen, it just made them get degrees...!   "The people" are still in the same boat...  You still don't know, unless you follow your gut.

Today you need a piece of paper to prove to you that someone knows what they are doing and yet there are STACKS of law suits against those with paper!
So basically, the paper is a your  way out of being responsible for yourself, your way of deferring your innate intuition for the "I'm suing if I'm not happy!" path.

Why would I want this piece of paper (a degree)?  It does not guarantee that I know what I'm doing!!!
It does not guarantee that you will get perfect results!
It does not guarantee that you will believe me!
It does not guarantee that you will do as I instruct you to do after you've paid me for my services.

Do you not work with normal everyday people?  Do you not see what they do?  How they do it?  How they don't really care?  How they follow the crowd....  How they have no true sense of integrity?

Who makes your fast food?
Who manufactures your car?
Who is your mechanic?
Who is your dentist?
Who is your pastor?
Who is that lady who sold you your glasses?
Who is that guy that said you need a new roof for your house?
Who is that person that said you need a new hard drive for your computer, you might as well buy a new one.... Oh look, we have them on sale!
Who is that kid that recommended product X for your fish tank?
Who is the person that took your blood sample?
Who are the people that package your store-bought food?  Better yet, who are the people that clean  the facility where your store-bought food is packaged??  Even mo'bettah, who are the people that inspect  the facilities where your store-bought food is packaged???

There was just a massive recall on canned tuna.....  Why?  They all have licenses and permits and certificates that qualify  them to process tuna!

Maybe its because they don't really care about what they do.
Maybe they don't care because they work their asses off for an idiot boss who doesn't care.
Maybe they feel like slave laborers who earn just enough wage to survive but never enough to enjoy life with like their owners.... I mean employers do......   Could that be it??????

Maybe your supervisor is under so much pressure from his boss to produce "numbers" that there is no longer any room for the integrity he once swore by and taught his sons.  So now his sons see him as just another schlep.... a sell out.... a loser.  So they are no longer motivated to give a shit about their jobs...

Do you know this person?  I bet you do.  I bet you work with them just like I have.

But here's the real question at this point:  Who out there in the work force, (and this includes absolutely every "job" imaginable...) is NOT lying to you the customer about their expertise???  What company that you buy from (goods or services) has your best interest at heart with every purchase you make instead of   producing numbers for corporate executives?

You don't know how many older clients I encounter in a day that are completely baffled, if not angered, by the corporate policies and bullshit they have to endure just to get simple services!  They truly don't get why we can't just "trust" them and why they can't trust us.  Then there are others that are on the opposite end of the spectrum - they are convinced that every time you tell them of additional services that you're only trying to screw them out of more money that they don't really need to spend!

HOW DO THEY KNOW.... that I'm sincere!  And experienced!  And skilled!  And that I completely understand where they are...  And that I sympathize greatly because most are just out to get their money....  How do they know that I genuinely care about them....???
How do they recognize me in a crowd of people who are backed by a huge corporation that claims to be sincere, experienced, skilled and caring???

I'm here to witness, to testify to you.... all of you.... out there..... anybody who was stupid enough to read this far.........    It's all a facade.  It's all a lie.  The commercials, the posters, the sales pitches....  Don't believe any of it.  It's all a lie.  They are usually NOT  qualified to give you the expert advise you are seeking.

So what do you do...?

Follow your heart.
Feel the truth in your gut.
Return to good old fashioned intuition.
Pay attention.
Stop whining, stop depending on others and DO NOT be helpless.
Then your heart will lead you to truth and sincerity.
You will indeed encounter those with genuine skill and talent that you are in need of in any given moment.

Be responsible for you.

Big Genes

Your ancestors and your genetic inheritance are very significant!!!

You carry their shit!

And at some point, YOU, (the one in the lineage that becomes "aware") are responsible to set things straight.

That's why sometimes people carry things that they can't figure out where it came from.... cuz 'they di'n do it!"
It's residual from ancestry, and its as strong as it is long.... how far back, and how many generations 'reinforced' this trait rather than re-patterning this trait??

I see genetic traits in my offspring that are IDENTICAL to their biological sperm donor yet they never spent enuff time with him to have learned this shit!!!!

Genetic!

And significant!!!

This is consciousness.  To become consciously aware of imbalance in the timeless dimension.  Its always there, and it will remain unbalanced until someone acknowledges it and deals with it... whatever "it" may be.

This is also why Jesus was NOT born of human seed... It makes perfect sense.  He carried no genetic baggage, no history.  That was his purity.  

Even if you choose to think of Jesus as metaphorical, the point is made. 

Clear your ancestral shit.  It is physically coded in your DNA.

Awareness Evolution

That's what its all about......
Becoming aware.

Awareness is not awareness if it only happened once.
Then its merely history.  It has no life, no meaning.

Awareness is a constant state of being.  A constant state of personal responsibility.  A constant state.  Constantly.

Most of you live in a constant state of history.  
You live based on what you've been told happened in the past whether its true or not.  The only choices you make are which prejudices to side with, which lies you are comfortable believing, which "principles" you will judge others by.

This is not you.
This is not real.
This is not life and you are not aware of anything living.

You vote because you were told that its unamerican not to.
You love this country because you were told that it represents freedom and all that is pure for humankind.
You pledge allegiance to a piece of cloth because you were forced to in school.
You go to the doctor because you were told that it is unhealthy not to.
You get vaccinations because you were told that you will get some horrible disease and die if you don't.  And you'll be the cause of spreading disease to others!
You were told that if you smoke cigarettes you will die of lung cancer.
You were told that there were dinosaurs and that their skin was green.
You were told that you evolved from apes.
You were told that men landed on the moon.
You were told...............
But what did you actually experience?
Why do you actually do the things that you do?
Based on what makes sense now, or based on what somebody else told you...?   How do you know.....
What do you know....

Do you eat just because its dinner time even tho you're not really hungry?
Do you ever know that the phone is about to ring?
Did you ever have a feeling that you weren't gonna make the lite before it turned red?
Did ya ever have a feeling you should grab some butter while at the store even tho you didn't know if you needed any?  Just to get home and see that there was only one dab of butter left....

No one can tell you that you are or are not hungry.  You yourself feel it or you don't.
No one can tell you that you feel the phone about to ring.  You either have that feeling or you don't.
No one can tell you that you feel the rhythm of the traffic lites, or feel the need for butter.... You either feel it or you don't.  
Or someone can just tell you...
"Eat".
"You're about to get a phone call from Dad".
"You're not gonna make that lite!"
"Get some butter on your way home".
None of which requires you to have a feeling about anything.  You're just doing what you're told.  You choose to believe it.  You choose to obey. 

Ever have someone tell you to get butter on the way home but you have a feeling that you don't need butter??
Just to get home and see a brand new container of butter pushed to the back of the fridge on the bottom shelf....?

The point is to evolve into greater and greater awareness.  Are you aware.  
"I had a feeling I shouldn't have done that!"
"I knew I was right!"
"This feels wrong..."
"I know I have permission but this just doesn't feel right..."

Are you aware.

I know what "they" say... but what do I say?  
Does it feel right?
Does it feel right for me?
Does it feel right for me right now?

Capitalism no longer makes any sense.
Public schools no longer make any sense.
Believing everything a "doctor" tells you no longer makes any sense.
Maybe one day it did.  But it is no longer a livable principle.  It has no life in it.
Are you aware of this?  Yes you are.  Will you do anything about it?  No you won't.  You will be afraid.  You will choose to exist in fear rather than live in truth.  Awareness dies inside you and you do not evolve.
When entire generations do this, the whole species does not evolve.

Gasoline engines are no longer wise.  The technology exists to fix this.  But capitalism will not allow it.  So we destroy our planet, everything on it, and ourselves as well as our progenies. 

The point is to evolve in awareness...  
I am evolving in awareness, but you are not.
What happens now...?
Let's find out.