Time is wonky for me right now.
I woke up this way this morning after a very strange dream.
I do not remember it, but I do remember that I was being shown how brain chemistry creates what we believe is real in this realm.
And so my question was: Then how do I know ME? How do I realize myself, how do I remain aware of my true soul self outside the "chemical programming" of my Earthly biology?
I was reminded of the time I had a mini-stroke. Once the panic eased, it was fascinating! And very real. My concern in this dream: I did not want to be unconscious again! I did not want to forget. I did not want to lose myself.
Whatever happens to you, don't be afraid.
Trust Life.
How did you get here?
Life.
DoNot Fear!
Time seems to fade in and out of specific timelines in front of me.
The aching in my knees has been increasing for the last few days, and breathing is difficult.
There is so much diversity!!!!
All are to be respected, but I am much too aware of too many different signals and this translates as noisy noise to me. Confusion.
I stand as firmly as I can.
But all I want to do is go live in the woods to get away from it all!
I see no headway.
I don't see people waking up like many do.
I want to help!!!
But I feel helpless.
This damned illusion keeps getting in the way of my reality!!!
I'm sick of it!
I send energy as purely as I can.......
The rest is just walking uphill in molasses during a blizzard in the winter on a mountain top.....
Where is the unity?
Where is the tribe?
I woke up this way this morning after a very strange dream.
I do not remember it, but I do remember that I was being shown how brain chemistry creates what we believe is real in this realm.
And so my question was: Then how do I know ME? How do I realize myself, how do I remain aware of my true soul self outside the "chemical programming" of my Earthly biology?
I was reminded of the time I had a mini-stroke. Once the panic eased, it was fascinating! And very real. My concern in this dream: I did not want to be unconscious again! I did not want to forget. I did not want to lose myself.
Whatever happens to you, don't be afraid.
Trust Life.
How did you get here?
Life.
DoNot Fear!
Time seems to fade in and out of specific timelines in front of me.
The aching in my knees has been increasing for the last few days, and breathing is difficult.
There is so much diversity!!!!
All are to be respected, but I am much too aware of too many different signals and this translates as noisy noise to me. Confusion.
I stand as firmly as I can.
But all I want to do is go live in the woods to get away from it all!
I see no headway.
I don't see people waking up like many do.
I want to help!!!
But I feel helpless.
This damned illusion keeps getting in the way of my reality!!!
I'm sick of it!
I send energy as purely as I can.......
The rest is just walking uphill in molasses during a blizzard in the winter on a mountain top.....
Where is the unity?
Where is the tribe?
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