Maybe you've noticed.
Maybe not...
But the pressure in many of our lives is becoming nearly unbearable. Deep, heavy, sinking depression. Insurmountable circumstances. Not just the usual problems. Not, "Oh damn. I forgot to get toilet paper." More like, "I can't take things the way they are anymore! I need to change! I feel a change. I see it right in front of me! But I can't reach it! The world is closing in on me and I can't even breathe!!"
Why? What the hell is going on!?
Nothing works anymore. No methods. No mantras. No plans or programs. Nothing.... Prayers aren't working, nutrition's not working, being healthy and conscientious isn't working.... It's all turning to bullshit. All the crutches are crumbling beneath our feet.
At the same time the lines are becoming bolder and more unmistakably clear. You conform, or you rebel. You follow, or you feel.
I have no insight and no solutions at this writing.
I'm only writing it to put voice to a common theme to what I'm hearing among souls. And most loudly within my own soul.
A cry...
I spent an entire day just randomly crying over everything. Literally crying.... And I don't know why... Nothing catastrophic has happened in my life. Things are very much average. But the cry in my soul has been overwhelming.
And it boils down to this: I'm sick of this world. Sick. My heart is broken, and bleeding, and hurting, and it will not be healed by anything less than..... ?
Enough bullshit.
Enuff!!! Enuff taking the same goddamn circle over and over again and expecting to end up in a better place!
Enuff with fools.
Enuff with stupidity.
Enuff with double standards.
Enuff with slave labor in the name of capitalism, which sails under the name of patriotism, which sails under the brand "AMERICA".
Enuff with dumb stupid rednecks who want to shoot people for speaking a truth they're scared to see because the only identity these rednecks have is... their red necks....
Enuff with rights.
Enuff with government.
Enuff with politics.
Enuff....... Enuff with making me spell enuff with an ough..... REALLY!!!
Enuff.
It's over..... This world cannot go on this way. It simply cannot. The warning cries have been going out for years. The warning signs are everywhere. Good people continue to suffer. It's not changing. It's not getting better.
So if you feel this.... If you've been feeling unusually heavy, or depressed and not sure why, or outraged and discontent in a way that just won't let you go on with the same ol' anymore, if the pressure is building in your chest or in your gut and it makes no sense...
Here is what I'm suggesting you do: DON'T HOLD BACK!!! DON'T HOLD IT IN!!! Don't be nice. Don't mind your manners. Don't fear the consequences....
Let it out!!! Cry with a relentless cry to the heavens and the universe!!! Do not sensor yourself!! Cry out, shout out, scream, sit in a corner and rock.... but don't hold back what you're feeling in this moment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No more holding back.....
No more!!! No more...... Do not hide what you feel right now, and do not hide from what you feel right now.
It's not a suicidal thing.... But it is helplessness, hopelessness, madness, insanity!!! ENUFF! It's "finally fed up".... I can't hold it in any longer. I hurt. The world hurts. This is insane! This is enuff..........
Maybe not...
But the pressure in many of our lives is becoming nearly unbearable. Deep, heavy, sinking depression. Insurmountable circumstances. Not just the usual problems. Not, "Oh damn. I forgot to get toilet paper." More like, "I can't take things the way they are anymore! I need to change! I feel a change. I see it right in front of me! But I can't reach it! The world is closing in on me and I can't even breathe!!"
Why? What the hell is going on!?
Nothing works anymore. No methods. No mantras. No plans or programs. Nothing.... Prayers aren't working, nutrition's not working, being healthy and conscientious isn't working.... It's all turning to bullshit. All the crutches are crumbling beneath our feet.
At the same time the lines are becoming bolder and more unmistakably clear. You conform, or you rebel. You follow, or you feel.
I have no insight and no solutions at this writing.
I'm only writing it to put voice to a common theme to what I'm hearing among souls. And most loudly within my own soul.
A cry...
I spent an entire day just randomly crying over everything. Literally crying.... And I don't know why... Nothing catastrophic has happened in my life. Things are very much average. But the cry in my soul has been overwhelming.
And it boils down to this: I'm sick of this world. Sick. My heart is broken, and bleeding, and hurting, and it will not be healed by anything less than..... ?
Enough bullshit.
Enuff!!! Enuff taking the same goddamn circle over and over again and expecting to end up in a better place!
Enuff with fools.
Enuff with stupidity.
Enuff with double standards.
Enuff with slave labor in the name of capitalism, which sails under the name of patriotism, which sails under the brand "AMERICA".
Enuff with dumb stupid rednecks who want to shoot people for speaking a truth they're scared to see because the only identity these rednecks have is... their red necks....
Enuff with rights.
Enuff with government.
Enuff with politics.
Enuff....... Enuff with making me spell enuff with an ough..... REALLY!!!
Enuff.
It's over..... This world cannot go on this way. It simply cannot. The warning cries have been going out for years. The warning signs are everywhere. Good people continue to suffer. It's not changing. It's not getting better.
So if you feel this.... If you've been feeling unusually heavy, or depressed and not sure why, or outraged and discontent in a way that just won't let you go on with the same ol' anymore, if the pressure is building in your chest or in your gut and it makes no sense...
Here is what I'm suggesting you do: DON'T HOLD BACK!!! DON'T HOLD IT IN!!! Don't be nice. Don't mind your manners. Don't fear the consequences....
Let it out!!! Cry with a relentless cry to the heavens and the universe!!! Do not sensor yourself!! Cry out, shout out, scream, sit in a corner and rock.... but don't hold back what you're feeling in this moment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No more holding back.....
No more!!! No more...... Do not hide what you feel right now, and do not hide from what you feel right now.
It's not a suicidal thing.... But it is helplessness, hopelessness, madness, insanity!!! ENUFF! It's "finally fed up".... I can't hold it in any longer. I hurt. The world hurts. This is insane! This is enuff..........
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